Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Faith in Every Footstep 10.20.14

Dear Family,

I feel like the title of this email is pretty clever and pretty realistic haha. When I went to the ER two weeks ago, the doctor said to not put any weight on my foot until I could see the orthopedist. Thankfully, some elders found a wheelchair for me and a lady in the branch gave me crutches so for a week Sister Fehlman pushed me up and down every hill in Kalamazoo. You don't realize how many hills actually exist until you're in a wheelchair and poor Sister Fehlman is half my size so it made for a very interesting week. I had an appointment with the orthopedist last week and all I wanted from her was the ability to walk on my foot. She walked in, talked to me for about three minutes, and walked out. And then another lady came in with Frankenstein's leg. Actually, it's an air cast but I am pretty sure I can walk on the moon with this thing. It's HUGE.
The doctor told me to use crutches and then move to one crutch and then walk on it as I can tolerate but all it translated into in my head was "DOBBY IS FREE!!!" So I've been shuffling along for the past week. Honestly, I look ridiculous because the moon boot has about a two inch thick sole and all I have are flats so I teeter from side to side as I walk. And just when you thought missionaries weren't weird enough.... Haha it's good. I only broke the 5th metatarsal which honestly isn't a huge deal but it's been a weirdly huge trial. It's such a little thing but it's made this past couple weeks a trial of patience and faith. For a while I felt like a lame horse and really wished someone would just shoot me because I really felt unproductive as a missionary and as a person. I felt like I had let a lot of people down- my companion, the mission president, my district, the sisters in my zone, the people in my branch, etc etc etc. It created a lot of stress and tension between me and my companion which led to a billion other things. But it's taught me a lot about humility and pairing up with the Lord to face trials. I've learned a lot about patience and I think my companion is learning a lot about patience as well. My foot still hurts a lot and there is still a long way until the end of it but I can have faith in every footstep, in spite of the pain and difficulties. I can choose to have faith in Heavenly Father. :)

Probably the biggest news and the best thing to happen this week was that Bin was set on date!! We're going to have a baptism!!! We almost lost our brains, we were so happy! His date is for the 29th of November! I am so excited for Bin! And ever since we set the date I can't stop picturing him as a member of the church. I really, really, really hope that everything works out. Bin has come so far since I started teaching him and I have seen a tremendous growth in his faith. He is awesome and I am so grateful that I've been able to teach him. The Church is true, guys. Never forget it.

If you haven't already, you need to Google "fall in Michigan" because it is BREATHTAKING. I LOVE TREES. Seriously, the colors are incredible and I haven't taken any pictures of the trees because it won't capture the mere splendor of it all. Michigan is SO. BEAUTIFUL. I am forcing my husband to come back to Michigan in the Fall. True story. The only sad thing is that the trees are beautiful for about a week and then over night all the leaves fall. So about a third of the trees are naked now. Looking at them makes me nervous for the Polar Vortex that's approaching. Bin told us the other day that it was 30 degrees at night. Ladies and gents, help me now. I'm already strategerizing (pretty sure I just made up a word) for this coming Winter. There will probably be snow by the end of the transfer. 

Something I have been thinking a lot about lately is Elder Klebingat's talk from this past General Conference. I have had one part in particular go through my head frequently and it's this: "Some trials come through your own disobedience or negligence. Other trials come because of the negligence of others or simply because this is a fallen world. When these trials come, the adversary’s minions begin broadcasting that you did something wrong, that this is a punishment, a sign that Heavenly Father does not love you. Ignore that! Instead, try to force a smile, gaze heavenward, and say, 'I understand, Lord. I know what this is. A time to prove myself, isn’t it?' Then partner with Him to endure well to the end....  'often trials and tribulations are allowed to come into [your life] because of what [you] are doing right'" There are times when I've been really discouraged in the past couple weeks but this talk has been a great reminder that this life is a testing period (a test that I was not passing well these past couple weeks), but that Heavenly Father expects us to turn to Him and rely on His wisdom and strength to make it through. "But the Lord knoweth all things from the beginning; wherefore, he prepareth a way to accomplish all his works among the children of men; for behold, he hath all power unto the fulfilling of all his words. And thus it is. Amen." (I Nephi 9:6)

I love you all so much! Thank you, thank you, thank you for all of your prayers in my behalf. I have never felt more supported by prayer as I have in the past couple weeks. I can without a doubt say that it is because of your prayers that things are going better. I love you all so much and I love this Gospel with all of my heart. Have an incredible week!

Sister Jensen

Happy Hump Day!! ;

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